I feel so much frustration with my lack of progress - yet so pleased with how far I've come. Maybe it's my rate of progress I'm frustrated with. I feel so inept and incapable - still a bumbling beginner yet so much better than I was. If I feel so awful now how bad was I back then? How bad am I now really and will I not truly appreciate that until the years in which I am better? Is this the curse of the learner - through experience we become aware of our own inexperience?
This, I guess, is where one must learn to enjoy and embrace the journey. With only an end in mind we will never enjoy the now and always feel dissatisfied with our dance, ourselves and the time and money invested.
So, how does one enjoy the journey? Truly enjoy it and not be caught up in the self-deprication and dissatisfaction? How do we stop ourselves feeling ashamed of our dances, guilty towards our partner for accepting their invitation or their acceptance of ours, and simply enjoy the dance for what it truly is - fun and enjoyment.
Honestly. I have no idea.
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